When you cannot forgive yourself...
There are times when you start to wonder what made you take the steps you took, which you should not have taken. You then try to reason it out and make yourself believe that whatever you did was something that happened all the time.... Mistakes do happen all the time, don't they? There are some faults that may acquire the pardon of the people around you. But there are some which, even you, cannot forgive yourself for. These unpardonable lapses in judgement come with a very high price to pay and leave you discouraged and broken. A thousand times a day, you say to yourself, "How could I have done that?" or "Why did I let it happen?" or "what was I thinking?" No explanation, whatsoever, is good enough to put your mind at peace. Your souls starts to disintegrate and life seems meaningless all over again. There is an emptiness that creeps into your being and sucks out all the hope from inside you. Nothing seems as good as it used to be and, although, yo...